I am purposefully stepping away from my online community for a bit. I need to say something first though. I certainly can’t find if in my heart to be funny about anything right now.
Firstly I have found myself really unwell, and unwell with two toddlers is more than the usual challenge. It has been going on for about two weeks. Secondly though and more significantly, I can’t articulate or process what just happened to my wonderful country in the General Election. But I will try.
I can’t believe the result. It sounds melodramatic but I am truly, deeply rocked and sickened that so many people voted for an acceleration of the hideous dismantling, bullying and rights-curtailments we have experienced over the last 5 years. They say it was democracy at work, but how can people have a clear picture of the policies when one party is of the rich and privileged and furthermore has our disgraceful media in its pocket? AND has passed a gagging law prohibiting anti-government propaganda in the 12 months prior to the election? The campaign relied heavily on orchestrated newspaper-led smearing of other parties.
I’m not a disabled person, or someone claiming benefits, but I am human and I don’t think society prospers if we only look inwards to ourselves.
I’m so emotional about this and so clearly defeated, I just… What..? I am in disbelief. I am also in emergency mode: if these Tories, now unfettered by a milder voice (if you are not from the UK, last time they did not win, they had to form a coalition but this time they won!!! I mean it is worthy of study and analysis, that is for sure) do something to the route I have taken over three years in the next 8 weeks or so, I don’t know what will happen to us. I guess Mummy AW would be stuck in limbo… Maybe back in bangkok. The girls and I would have to struggle claiming benefits for the first time in our lives as I can’t take up the job I have accepted without her. It doesn’t bear thinking about. Anyway it is in their manifesto, to stop EU residents bringing non-EU spouses with them to the UK, so they will mess with people like us. I just hope we are all systems go before they do. And then, I hoped to be coming home to a better Britain. It won’t be that. Who the hell elects a party whose mission is to abolish the protections of their own basic human rights?! My head hurts!
I’m going off the grid a little because many will call me a sore loser. They will find me insufferable. And Jesus I am sore. Like a bear. And I have to regroup and readjust my faith in humanity. I will be back.
It is a dark day, for everyone- even the wealthy, as they insert a wedge to keep open the cracks forming in our once functioning society; as they turn their backs. I think the the working poor are going to have a lot to say about how the Tories have crushed them. That is if their channels of communication are not further stimied and they are not further stigmatised for their anger. The Tories have ripped the beating hearts out of our chests.